I'll make this quick... cos I have to sleep.

So today, we passed by NUH again, and we didn't bump into that topic, which is good.

And I think at this point, I'm quite convinced about studying in Australia, an environmental-related course. All this after months of back and forth deliberation between plans. There's an open house this weekend, I'll probably apply then.

So on the way back, I imagined what it'd be like, leaving for a 3-year course. Heh, I remember missing my sister when she left, but never imagined that I'll be the one leaving.

What new sights and sounds will I be hearing? Cultures, people... experiences. How much will things change during the periods I come back?

I could imagine posting a blog post at a measly 10pm, wishing you folks good night as I have to wake up the following day.

Or perhaps, I'll be shown something else.

I can't wait.

Musings

Why do our conversations always end up depressing every time we go home from Aunty Ros' house?

Oh right, cos we pass by the NUH.

It's rather depressing. I mean, it doesn't affect me at all, but still don't really enjoy hearing it. It's like reading up on WWII; it doesn't affect you on a personal level, but it still is depressing nonetheless. The fact I wasted money; the fact I made people cry. What is my purpose for existence? So far I've just been sapping off money like a leech, with no real purpose to fulfil.

Okay enough with the depressing stuff already. Some random videos on Facebook was enough to snap me out of it.

A colleague suggested I tackle a certain issue: Has the standards of English degraded in this modern age?

Short answer: Yes, it has degraded.

Long answer: Yes. The flexibility of information in this digital age allows us to take liberties with data that is readily accessible. In the past, it took time and money (for materials and service costs) to send information to another, but with the Internet, the aforementioned obstacles become the least of concerns. As a result, people either demand that we keep things as simple as possible for the common, layman reader to understand (and edit it later on if necessary), or mutilate it relentlessly, thus causing a degradation of the language.

I don't even know if I understand the weight of what I just wrote.

Yes, I updated cos my colleagues thought my blog somewhat amusing. So, this post was partially inspired (read: forced) by my colleagues at work. So guys, this one's for you all. :)

Bleagh. OH YES THE GAMEEEEE. Yeah I just lost at the thought of you guys reading.

I randomly remembered today that this is my birthday week.

Will it turn out to be a good week? I realise that it doesn't quite matter to me actually. It just feels like another normal week. I'm not sure if I should be concerned I think this way.

Today I had this medical checkup, and of course, nothing interesting except one thing. Their height/weight machine says I'm 57.1kg heavy and 161cm tall. My weighing scale still says I'm 54kg. Well, I mean, it's possible I could have gained weight from my last official medical checkup in 2008, but shrinking 4 centimetres doesn't sound very believable. The doctor told me "not to worry about that". I guess he's referring to the machine. I HOPE.

Now I have to focus on more critical matters. This blog does not fall in that category, so expect me to forget about this blog for quite a while. I need to cut down on stuff to focus on other things for now.

2010

Sorry.

I shouldn't get too used to not writing blog posts. It's not that I was lazy, just that, I just don't feel like blogging. I wouldn't say there was much to blog about... *runs away from the angry mob of debaters bringing up Christmas and New Year*

Yeah, Christmas and New Year was good, more events, more change, it helped that there were holidays from NS. I needed that variety in life once in a while. But I guess I couldn't help but feel that 2009 could have been so much more. It gave me a mixed feeling of want and regret. Still, I should be thankful as it is probably one of the more pivotal years in my life.

And so I exit 2009 and enter 2010, fearfully, but excitedly. With hopes of a fresh start. The past year (along with some of 2008) has shown me the kind of person I want to become, and it has been a quick, drastic change. Almost like when modernism came in for society, it progresses society forward, yet it brings a nostalgic longing for the old times. I have a tinge of sadness but just like modernism, it is inevitable, but it is essential to progression. I would imagine the normal person to have transitioned from a youthful mentality to an adult's slowly, but maybe I am wrong. I should be wrong... surely others have felt this kind of feeling I feel too.

Anyhow, improving myself to be who I want to be to others, finding new interests, making new friends, strengthening ties, expanding my horizons. I also need to get close to God again.

2010 feels like it's gonna be a wild ride.

A (Somehow Surprisingly) Tiring Weekend

Hi guys,

This weekend has been awfully tiring for some apparent reason. Perhaps because so many things happened at a time that could have drained out my energy levels, like the wedding. Cheryl's and Daniel's weeding. It was nice and all, though I did feel that the speaker (Dr. Tow) who was supposed to give the exhortation to the couple, made it more of an anti-homosexuality sermon; a sermon completely irrelevant to the couple who have already made a proper marriage... I don't want to comment much about it at this point (cos I don't feel like giving off a hostile vibe at the moment).

Then it went on to the evening dinner, where I had to emcee along with cousin Kenneth (him doing the harder, Chinese version). Of course I thought it would just be a going over of scripts but silly me, this was a big event with a dinner and items by other people other than me. Thought it would be like a poly project presentation, but it was not to be. However, I did relearn some things I have forgotten, like not to write a script on cards, but to write point forms since it works better for me. Too late, so I had to adapt here and there, but overall it was fine. The flaws are only visible to the creators, while everyone else was giving me unjustified praise. It was a learning experience.

By the time we reached home, it was already close to 12am. I waited for my turn to use the toilet and whilst doing so, felt so tired that I had to take a nap. So I eventually used the toilet at maybe 1am (it's all hazy here) and then went to sleep.

Woke up to a splitting headache at around 730am. The headache's epicentre at my right side and; shaking my head, the pain extended to the lower central parts of my brain. Subsequent shakes of the head weren't so bad though... dunno why. It eventually got better the rest of the day but I was mostly relatively drowsy throughout the whole day.

I had better go sleep now. Nice to have a change of weekend. Back to normal now... oh wait, next weekend might not be so normal. Agh... I feel both anticipation and dread, but mostly anticipation. :)

More Blahblahblahs

Today I ate Japanese food, not too bad for its price but well, I don't get to eat it a lot so I savour every moment anyways. Buffet. Just stuffing up as much as possible, but I couldn't eat as much as I thought, somehow. I blame it on my sore throat that seemed to have developed in the morning and my eventual sneezing and blocked nose. At least I'm keeping it in check, but I hope I don't get sick tomorrow.

Tomorrow I will be flying in a Chinook for the second time! The first time was last Wednesday. Fun ride, though the occasional dips were rather uncomfortable. Still, it's a nice ride. When you're riding in one, you realise how fast it can go. When you're an external viewer, somehow it doesn't look that fast. Haha, I sound like I'm talking about relativity, but in the reverse (I could be wrong; I'm not entirely clear with my understanding of relativity).

And now I have other pressing matters to return to, like sleep. Oh, yeah.

Oops! I did it again.

I forgot my blog.

Got myself to blame.

Oh baby, baby

Oops! You thought I was dead.

Somehow lost my hay-ay-ay-aed.

I'm just that amnesic.

I keep thinking of more. Help me, I don't want to make a full parody of this song, and I don't want to sing it if given the choice (Erinn is probably right, I may end up singing it, if I can... hahaha)!

Oops!... I did it again.

I forgot my blog.

Got myself to blame.

Oh b-... ok let's stop this rubbish.

Thanks to Erinn for reminding me to blog. Between then and now, I have been visiting my blog once in a while to see if there was any comment to comment on. A few times, maybe 2 times a week, then after that, I'd reconsider blogging and I decide not to. Then now I realise I should be writing something before it becomes a relic again.

Well let's see, in the workplace, things are changing. I don't know if I can say specifics out loud since we want it to be transparent to the public, so I'll just keep it at that. Lots of unlearning and relearning to do, I don't know if things are turning out for the better or worse. Most are thinking worse, but I'm not too sure. I think it's about the same, if you just substitute this for that. And so basically, my last few days at work were mostly about familiarization than doing actual work. It worries me a LOT. I'm scared of the workload...

I know that between then and now, I did think of rather interesting things to blog about, but I skipped it. Now here I am, with nothing in mind when I'm doing the actual blogging.

The year is coming to an end. My NS will end soon too (yes it will, so shush). And time suddenly seems to be rushing on. Not like back then when we were all kids. Time was slow and a luxury. Now it's racing fast. I am afraid, but still feel somewhat confident things will be alright. Confident fear. Fearful confidence. Choose one. I choose the 2nd.

Actually, I don't even know if I'm making any sense at this point. Hahaha.