I randomly remembered today that this is my birthday week.

Will it turn out to be a good week? I realise that it doesn't quite matter to me actually. It just feels like another normal week. I'm not sure if I should be concerned I think this way.

Today I had this medical checkup, and of course, nothing interesting except one thing. Their height/weight machine says I'm 57.1kg heavy and 161cm tall. My weighing scale still says I'm 54kg. Well, I mean, it's possible I could have gained weight from my last official medical checkup in 2008, but shrinking 4 centimetres doesn't sound very believable. The doctor told me "not to worry about that". I guess he's referring to the machine. I HOPE.

Now I have to focus on more critical matters. This blog does not fall in that category, so expect me to forget about this blog for quite a while. I need to cut down on stuff to focus on other things for now.

2010

Sorry.

I shouldn't get too used to not writing blog posts. It's not that I was lazy, just that, I just don't feel like blogging. I wouldn't say there was much to blog about... *runs away from the angry mob of debaters bringing up Christmas and New Year*

Yeah, Christmas and New Year was good, more events, more change, it helped that there were holidays from NS. I needed that variety in life once in a while. But I guess I couldn't help but feel that 2009 could have been so much more. It gave me a mixed feeling of want and regret. Still, I should be thankful as it is probably one of the more pivotal years in my life.

And so I exit 2009 and enter 2010, fearfully, but excitedly. With hopes of a fresh start. The past year (along with some of 2008) has shown me the kind of person I want to become, and it has been a quick, drastic change. Almost like when modernism came in for society, it progresses society forward, yet it brings a nostalgic longing for the old times. I have a tinge of sadness but just like modernism, it is inevitable, but it is essential to progression. I would imagine the normal person to have transitioned from a youthful mentality to an adult's slowly, but maybe I am wrong. I should be wrong... surely others have felt this kind of feeling I feel too.

Anyhow, improving myself to be who I want to be to others, finding new interests, making new friends, strengthening ties, expanding my horizons. I also need to get close to God again.

2010 feels like it's gonna be a wild ride.