I'll make this quick... cos I have to sleep.

So today, we passed by NUH again, and we didn't bump into that topic, which is good.

And I think at this point, I'm quite convinced about studying in Australia, an environmental-related course. All this after months of back and forth deliberation between plans. There's an open house this weekend, I'll probably apply then.

So on the way back, I imagined what it'd be like, leaving for a 3-year course. Heh, I remember missing my sister when she left, but never imagined that I'll be the one leaving.

What new sights and sounds will I be hearing? Cultures, people... experiences. How much will things change during the periods I come back?

I could imagine posting a blog post at a measly 10pm, wishing you folks good night as I have to wake up the following day.

Or perhaps, I'll be shown something else.

I can't wait.

Musings

Why do our conversations always end up depressing every time we go home from Aunty Ros' house?

Oh right, cos we pass by the NUH.

It's rather depressing. I mean, it doesn't affect me at all, but still don't really enjoy hearing it. It's like reading up on WWII; it doesn't affect you on a personal level, but it still is depressing nonetheless. The fact I wasted money; the fact I made people cry. What is my purpose for existence? So far I've just been sapping off money like a leech, with no real purpose to fulfil.

Okay enough with the depressing stuff already. Some random videos on Facebook was enough to snap me out of it.

A colleague suggested I tackle a certain issue: Has the standards of English degraded in this modern age?

Short answer: Yes, it has degraded.

Long answer: Yes. The flexibility of information in this digital age allows us to take liberties with data that is readily accessible. In the past, it took time and money (for materials and service costs) to send information to another, but with the Internet, the aforementioned obstacles become the least of concerns. As a result, people either demand that we keep things as simple as possible for the common, layman reader to understand (and edit it later on if necessary), or mutilate it relentlessly, thus causing a degradation of the language.

I don't even know if I understand the weight of what I just wrote.

Yes, I updated cos my colleagues thought my blog somewhat amusing. So, this post was partially inspired (read: forced) by my colleagues at work. So guys, this one's for you all. :)

Bleagh. OH YES THE GAMEEEEE. Yeah I just lost at the thought of you guys reading.

I randomly remembered today that this is my birthday week.

Will it turn out to be a good week? I realise that it doesn't quite matter to me actually. It just feels like another normal week. I'm not sure if I should be concerned I think this way.

Today I had this medical checkup, and of course, nothing interesting except one thing. Their height/weight machine says I'm 57.1kg heavy and 161cm tall. My weighing scale still says I'm 54kg. Well, I mean, it's possible I could have gained weight from my last official medical checkup in 2008, but shrinking 4 centimetres doesn't sound very believable. The doctor told me "not to worry about that". I guess he's referring to the machine. I HOPE.

Now I have to focus on more critical matters. This blog does not fall in that category, so expect me to forget about this blog for quite a while. I need to cut down on stuff to focus on other things for now.

2010

Sorry.

I shouldn't get too used to not writing blog posts. It's not that I was lazy, just that, I just don't feel like blogging. I wouldn't say there was much to blog about... *runs away from the angry mob of debaters bringing up Christmas and New Year*

Yeah, Christmas and New Year was good, more events, more change, it helped that there were holidays from NS. I needed that variety in life once in a while. But I guess I couldn't help but feel that 2009 could have been so much more. It gave me a mixed feeling of want and regret. Still, I should be thankful as it is probably one of the more pivotal years in my life.

And so I exit 2009 and enter 2010, fearfully, but excitedly. With hopes of a fresh start. The past year (along with some of 2008) has shown me the kind of person I want to become, and it has been a quick, drastic change. Almost like when modernism came in for society, it progresses society forward, yet it brings a nostalgic longing for the old times. I have a tinge of sadness but just like modernism, it is inevitable, but it is essential to progression. I would imagine the normal person to have transitioned from a youthful mentality to an adult's slowly, but maybe I am wrong. I should be wrong... surely others have felt this kind of feeling I feel too.

Anyhow, improving myself to be who I want to be to others, finding new interests, making new friends, strengthening ties, expanding my horizons. I also need to get close to God again.

2010 feels like it's gonna be a wild ride.